Still here

I'm still here I promise!! Life/Work has been crazy lately. Every time I was determined to get on here I got side tracked. I plan on update some site soon but until then go check out a couple of sites.

Uncorked

Innsane

Ashley

How's this look?

I love messing with stuff. My blog was in the line of fire so it got hit this time...

I'm still tweaking in so let me know what you think. Well if there is anyone out there, let me know what you think. .....Taps microphone...Is this thing on???.... Ya know, sometimes I wonder if anybody does read my ramblings. Yeah I'm off the wall, sometimes just plain loopy. But oh well, nice to meet you!

What are your resolutions for 2009? It's a new beginning remember. Like last year wasn't enough..lol My resolution for 2009: Not to make any resolutions! That way I don't kick myself in the ass for not doing what I wanted to. Now I can make a list of what I want to do, but when I don't finish them I won't be as disappointed in myself. So I'm not going to lose weight (don't need too), I'm not going to get in shape, I'm not going to quit drinking or smoking, I'm not going to save money, or stockpile things, all in all I'm not going to do anyting I'm not already doing!!!

Crash and Burn

I give up. I so sick and tired of trying to make plans only to have them crash and burn. We were planning a trip to MI, yeah it had to go and rain so now that trip is out. Ugh!!! I was so looking forward to the getaway. I needed it. But, it was par for the course for it not to happen. I should have know that it wouldn't have worked trying to plan it so quickly like we did. Some things began to unravel about a week ago, then something else would show up, then the weather tipped the bowl over this weekend and that was that. I keep hoping for a last minute miracle, but even then it's too late now. Damn it!!! I'm sure we'll go back this summer. But shit fire I wanted to go now. So did the punks. Freaking fracking fu@k a duck. I give up.

It's that time again

Well it's that time of the year again. Thanksgiving has come and gone. Black Friday is past. Now it's down to the nitty gritty of Christmas. I haven't even started shopping. I don't want to either. I almost tempted to just buy for the kids and no one else. I can't afford it. 10+ nieces and nephews, brothers, sisters, mom's, dad's and grandparents adds up quick!! Now if I didn't have 5 punks to buy for it might be different. But it's not so that's the way it is. They will come first and foremost then if there's extra I'll buy, maybe.
Hubby is off work for the next month and has been off the past month. We learned last week that he is going to have to have a pacemaker. That is scheduled to happen this week. Just in time for the holiday rush. First he fractures his hip, then gets cleared for work and we find out about this. Yep, sounds like the story of my life. If it's not one things it's another. It''s amazing how quick things can change.
Speaking of change I was going to update my blog look for the holidays but decided I don't know enough to hold all my widgets without having to redo them all. So if you do happen to read this your stuck with the colors already shown. I'll try to add a few pictures to add a little holiday cheer to the place.
Oh we have a new family member now. Her name is Pebbles. She is a teacup Chihuahua. She is about 7 weeks old. And let me tell you, if you think you want another baby. Get a puppy and you'll be reminded of the lack of sleep and waking at all hours of the night. But you also get to wake up with a cute little face in yours. She's spoiled just like any other child would be. If I could somehow manage to get the punks to actually let her feet touch the floor that might would help some. And maybe, just maybe she wouldn't be sitting here at my feet whining right now. Luckily no one at work minds that she sleeps under my desk.
We had our first mix of wintery weather today. We had sleet and snow flurries. It was so beautiful. I couldn't believe how hard it would come down at times. Unfortunately our ground and all it too warm and it melted as fast as it fell. But at least it actually did something.
Ok well I guess that's all for now. Catch ya the in the next five.

Happy Halloween

Today is probably one of the most exciting days for the punks, with the exception of Christmas of course. Who wouldn't love getting dressed up in a costume, going to houses & churches, and getting a shit load of candy? I usually get out the the punks at the various stops along the way, but tonight will be different. For the first time in 5 years Hubby will not be accompanying me. So I will be driving and still probably getting out of the van 500 and 50 thousand times. Ugh! This is the part of Halloween I don't like. We don't live in a neighborhood or town that you can walk to do the T-O-T. We have to drive. Hopefully I'll remember to take some pics this year. Forgot to do that last year....bad mommy!!! So what's your plans for Halloween night. Well if you live in Detroit you have a curfew of 6pm if your under 16 I believe. I can't believe people still to that crap. Oh well that's a different post for a different day.
Hope you have a wonderful scary Halloween!!!
Till next time...

Yep that's it

I think I figured it out. Well at least part of it anyway. Are you confused yet???? The funky post is what I'm referring too. Tomorrow is my b-day. One that I'm not looking forward to at all. Tomorrow I will be 30. I'm not happy about it at all. Yes I'm happy that I'm in good health, still alive to be turning another year older. But not happy about turning another year older. I don't want to leave my twenties. I've had to much fun in these years! A lot has changed in my life in these 10 years. I've went through a divorce and a long term relationship. I've married my soul-mate. I've moved several times. I've given birth to three punks and gained two step-punks. I've gotten a couple of worry lines, several several gray hairs. (Can't tell that now, I took care of that last night!!!) I've traveled to new places. I've experienced new and exciting things. Yes I know there's plenty more to see and do. But it's just something about the twenties for me I guess. What does the next 10 years old in store for me? Will the next 10 still be fun and exciting? Will I have this same problem leaving my thirties? Am I completely and utterly crazy? Ok, don't answer that one. Just think in 10 more years my baby will be a teenager!!! Yikes. Ok now I really have a problem.

Funk

Yep, that's what I'm in. I've tried everything to shake it. Everything is going ok here. Hub's is back working, everyone is well. But I'm in this funk. I'll bite your head off and not think twice about it until about 2 nano seconds later. The smallest things are bugging the shit out of me. I feel like some of the punks are bombarding me with so many damn questions/wants. Want want want then damn it it's not good enough. And the questions: do people not use common sense anymore? Some of the questions ask are so so.... stupid. They won't pertain to anything that we have said or done, more than likely the come out of the blue with no freaking rhyme or reason. Not mentioning any names.... I woke up this morning feeling like shit warmed over. Now I've got that damn mediciney feeling. And still have over an hour of work left. Speaking of work I gotta get back to it!!!

I'm still alive

Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since I've been here!! Don't you just love life? Hubby is still unemployed so that make week 4 I believe. But keeping fingers crosses, hopefully he'll hear from a job tomorrow! Work sucks right now. Plain and simple I hate it some days. Two people trying to do the job of 3 or 4 isn't cutting it. Speaking of that today is the last day of the month so I've got to get back to the grind. I'll update more soon!!!

week 2 of.... yeah you know

Well we have embarked on week #2. I believe in the previous post I said something about hubby cleaning and straighting stuff out. HA HA!!!! I think he did pick up 2 pieces of clothing and put them into the correct dirty clothes bin. And no people, I am not joking. I wonder if I made a list if that would help? Uh NO!! Know why, cause he'd hold on to that list until the punks got home and handed it to them. And of course there's not much of a problem with this, except that they only do a half-assed job of their particular job and consider that done. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm no perfectionist by any means, but come on! When you load dishes, take the two seconds to turn around and pick up the pan sitting on the stove less than 2 feet behind you. Oh, sorry there. That will be a different post for a different day. Back to hubs! Still unemployed, no foreseeable employer in the near future, no word on unemployment compensation.

PS: Don't ever do a stupid thing like I did when researching online colleges: which would be putting your phone number out there. I have one freaking one that keeps calling and emailing, you'd think they would get the point!

week 1 of unemployment

for hubby that is....

Hubby says that since he is "off work" right now that he is going to get things 'round the house straightened out. Oh boy! He's planning on going through stuff and getting rid of a lot of things. I told him that he's done that before but the keep pile is always bigger than the go pile. LOL Isn't that how it usually works? I would really love to get in there and do some deep deep cleaning on the place. All that has been getting done lately is a light surface cleaning. S17 has been helping me out so much in that area. I know she hates doing it, but she is one of the only ones that will do it without too much attitude. I have thanked her several times for cooking dinner while I shuttle punks to soccer practice and all. I hate putting so much on her, but she takes most of it with stride. Yes she can be sneaky as all get out, and yes she will do things that she is absolutely not supposed to do, but I guess it sorta balances out in a weird kind of way.

Got a little of subject there. Anywho, anyone want to take bets on just how much junk we are rid of while hubby is unemployed? Anyone want to guess how many more gray hairs I end up with by the time this is over? Will I be able to handle the stress that comes from cleaning? As long as all my rubber bands hold together I think I'll be ok....LOL

Don't worry...Be happy????

Oh man, there's been so much going on. Life is like these hurricanes that keep heading into the Gulf of Mexico. My life it about on the same track. Not sure which way it's going until it's too late. This week has just plain sucked. Excuse me.. SUCKED!!! I spend one day at the ER and Urgent care offices with hubby. Damn ER docs didn't do shit but prescribe some pain pills. Urgent care finally gave some kind of diagnosis and more prescriptions. This would be good except for the fact that hubs is being a stubborn male and doesn't want to take the medicines. Ugh! Fine then keep hurting and complaining. Then punk 17 blood sugars was too high for school so she spent the day at work with me. She got a small taste of working. She did good then we get home and her blood starts rising again. So there's got to be something at home she's got stashed that she's getting into. I want to believe her when she says no, but its hard to when things like that keep happening. And if this was enough, hubby got laid off from his job. This is the icing on the cake. I don't know what in the hell we are going to do. Yeah we have a plan, but can't act on it for another month. How are we going to make it another month? I have soccer practices 4 nights a week, plus games fixing to start. Once games start practices will go down, but we'll still be making trips for those. Hubby brought it up that it's usually about this time of the year for him and his jobs. Ugh! It's so dang frustrating. Between life and kids I"m going to go crazy!!!! ****One more person lies to me or yells at me I am not responsible for my actions!!**** Bye now!

Happy Hump Day

Is it Wednesday already??? Where did the week go? Oh yeah I was out of it on Monday and recovering on Tuesday. LOL My procedure went well. No problems so far.

I did miss the first day of soccer practice for little Bug. Hubby got to take her and I think she impressed him. I'm so proud of her. I got to take her today. She did pretty good. I got tickled at her when she was in the goalie position. Then they did a little scrimmage and the ball hit her and she started complaining. Uh, babe, get used to it. It's gonna happen a lot playing soccer. I need to get her ball soon and get outside with her and practice. Does anyone know how to add more time to the day? Ugh, I need it. My oldest, punk 12, practice got rained out yesterday. So hopefully she'll get to practice tomorrow! She's excited for tomorrow.

I just read that one of the blogs I read A LOT is going away. I don't know for how long or if it is going to be permanently, but if you don't mind stop by and say bye: I will miss reading her blog tremendously. http://www.wombattheinnsane.com/

Ok it's about bed time here.

Busy, Busy Busy

Don't you just love the end of the month at work? Top that off with school starting back in a week and throw in dr. visits and you have a crazy busy week!!! So far this week I have been to three different dr. appointments. First up was hubby. Still having chest pains and shortness of breath. Doc is going to put a device in to record his heart if it drops below a certain # or above a certain #. Hopefully this will help and they can figure out what is going on!!! Next was myself to the Doc. Just a checkup, but I will be going in for an out-patient procedures in a couple of weeks as well. Female crap! Let's just say it's one step short of a hysterectomy. Finally eye visits for 2 of the punks. One checked out fine the other needs glasses! Plus, I have the shop to myself this week at work. Trying to get stuff out by end of the day. It sucks! So as I type I'm scarfing down my lunch. Next week schools starts back and I have lovely task of transferring punks from one school to another. I don't wanna do it but gas prices are forcing my hand. Also next week, I believe we have our first soccer meetings. I've about convinced myself that I was crazy for signing 2 up to play! Ok off to accomplish something, not sure what yet.

you gotta be kidding

I don't know who I thought I was kidding in my last post, I must be getting pretty good at lying to myself! HA! Overall I did manage to have my kitchen (at one time) clean, and threw away my damn coffee pot that quit working about a month ago! I also cleaned my bathroom completely, well ok I have vacuumed in there yet. Yes, my bathroom is carpeted, but that's another story. I also managed to get my sheets changed on my bed. I haven't tackled the mountain of clothes in my floor yet. Oh, and I unpacked Hubby's suitcase. Yep, it's been laying there since we return from MI. I did get a few good chuckles when he would get up during the night or morning and kick the damn thing!! My next plan is to tackle the bedroom. I also want to tackle our den (me and hubby disagree on the name of this room). The den is where clothes get thrown after coming out of the dryer. Sometimes folded others times not so much. It also houses my hubby's racing stuff. (I was nice there, I could have said racing shit!) And our old PC that doesn't work, a couple of old printers, a fax machine, a copier, and two filing cabinets. I so want to get in there and chuck about half of the crap! I'm gonna do it! Just not exactly sure when.

My house had been so damn hot. I live in the south, and the temps are anywhere between 90 and 100+ and add the humidity to that and it's miserable. Try living in that without any AC! Yes we were doing that. Did you catch that were part? We installed some AC units this weekend. YEAH!!! I slept a whole lot better. It does make it a little easier to clean now. Even though I still don't wanna do it!

Clean?

I've decided that no matter what I do or don't do, my house will never be clean. Sure it my be straightened, but man is it cluttered. I need to de-clutter and throw some shit away. That would go a long way in helping the rest of the house. I just have a problem throwing stuff away. Add to that we have no freaking place to store anything!!!! Ok we have 7 people living in a 3 bedroom/2 bath home. Each of the smaller bedrooms house 2 girls each. In one we have a set of bunk beds, a dresser, and a chest and a closet. The dresser and chest are packed to the breaking point with clothes, the closet is a haven for toy storage. And also under the bed have boxes for toy storage. The other bed room has 2 twin beds and two small chest and closet. Same story for that room only less toys because most are in the other room. Our bed room has our queen bed plus a toddler bed, 1 lg dresser and 1 small dresser, 1 entertainment stand, 2 night stands with 2 drawers each and 1 closet. All are packed. With the exception of the small dresser because I've been sooo lazy and haven't put the punky 3's clothes in there! Our bathroom does have some storage for towels and linens but not much. I really really need to do some purging. But honestly I'm so freaking overwhelmed I don't know where to start, or how. I suck at being domesticated. My dear hubby has put up with so much of this from me too. Or I should say me and my punks. They take after their mom. Sucks for them and me. I'm thinking about logging what I actually get accomplished once at home besides the normal cooking dinner and bathing punk 3 and all that standard stuff. I think the saying "A woman's work is never done" comes into play here. I can do it. I think I can, I think I can.... repeated over and over in my head. Please don't let me land on my face when I get home. Let me accomplish something. Start small and work up. Right?

Back to normal?

We had a great vacation! Most of the punks did good. There were a few exceptions. I'm working on getting some pics together.
Now comes the adjustment of getting back to normal. If there is a normal that is. Some things are def. back, but that's a different story. Not really in the mood for details today.

Oh, did you hear that the price of oil has dropped over $10 in the past couple of days. Now when are the prices going to do down at the pumps? I were paying about $4.15 +/- on vacation, get back home and I loved paying the $3.87. Isn't that bad! How long before something changes? Do we all have to file bankruptcy? Come on!

Relax those belts....

but keep them on for a few more hours!

Damn it, I'm about ready to just give the fuck up! Today has went to hell in a hand basket. That's about the only way to put it. Hubby is having chest pains again, but refuses to go to the dr. His dad had to go back to the dr. and so for now everything is up in the air again. But we should know in a couple of hours. HA HA!!! This is beginning to get on my last ever lovin nerve. Man I just feel in cusing like a sailor right now. Shit, damn, son of a bitch... Or maybe I just need a nice cold alocoholic beverage. Mmmmm....good!

We're in a Holding Pattern

....and the brakes have been applied. As of right now, our vacation trip to MI is in the air. Hubby's father is in the hospital at this time. By tomorrow we should know something for sure. I'm on the fence on it all. I've had a feeling I haven't been able to shake concerning this trip. I think we still might go camping at a local place, or just go somewhere a few hours away instead of 12. I don't know. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.

Oh a good note, I finally got my "baby" home. After being gone for a week, 3 is back at home. Man I missed her. So for the first time in a long time, all 5 punks were home this weekend. And oh my God, what a freaking loud weekend it was. And the arguing/fighting, I've got to figure out where to apply for the referee pay. Sheesh. And mostly over stupid Barbie doll clothes/shoes. "Don't touch my stuff".... if I could coin that phrase I'd be a millionaire! But the worst part was it was s12 saying that to 3!!! Come on. Ugh! 8 has the bad habit of being a follower/pushover, so she got into some trouble too. And why can they learn that when your asked a question, just answer truthfully. Yeah you might get in trouble. But I guarantee it will be less than when you lie to our face!!! Needless to say 8 was put to bed early last night. Followed by 12 & s12 who started arguing and fighting. Then s17 & cousin 12 went to bed at eleven. Then s12 decided to start aggravating them. I need to invent something to keep them tied down in bed without getting me in trouble. Why can't they just go to bed and stay in bed like normal people. I don't need to hear all the bumps in the night! I'm starting to get sleep deprived over this!!!!

Pushing Buttons

For this post to make any sense whatsoever you need to read this post first.

Ok I'll start with s12 first. Yes the questions were still thrown at me and hubby left and right. No matter how many times you give a response, if it's not the one she wants the question is coming back at ya later (or should I say rather soon). I'm getting to be pretty good at blowing it off, now hubby will get fed up sooner than I. I know all this is a big adjustment for her, coming for the previous living situation and all. But shit, it's been over 2 months with our rules, our house, or life style. You'd think something would have clicked just a little by now. AAAhhhhh.....I digress.

Ok now on to 16. Can you guess what happened?? Bet ya can! I get there to pick her up and lets just say I wasn't surprised! We get home and the shit hits the fan. I was doing very good letting hubby handle the situation then a nerve of mine got struck and I flew off the handle. Our house, our rules, we are the parents no one else!! And I don't care what so & so said. She apologized later and I told her that I couldn't do anything for her anymore and best thing to do it drop it and let it fall away for now. I did give her an example of what she should have done to show us respect and to be responsible. Maybe that will sink in. For the next few days both are gone visiting grandparents.

I haven't seen 12 in over a week now. She went on vacation with my parents and then to her dads and here and there. I take that back I did see her for about 2 minutes Friday. LOL She is supposed to come home tonight; but has already called to see if she can spend the night with Granny!! And 8 called wanting to say somewhere too! My kiddos don't wanna come home! 3 is also gone for a week visiting her aunt and cousins. I certainly don't mind a quite house, but dang I miss the little punks!!!!

TGIF

Ahhhhh... only a couple more hours to go then I'm off work!! Yea for me!

Feeling a little better today. Not a whole lot. And if your wondering, we had to deal with the punk 16's shit again last night. But it was sworn to us that the boy would not be there this weekend while she's there so I believe we are going to let her spend the night. If I find out any different, she'll figure out just what how mean I can be instead of dad! Who knows if it's a mistake or not, only time will tell. But at least I don't have to hear the moaning and groaning and deal with the attitude of her tonight. No tonight it will probably be s12!! Oh, also, I told you that during all this punk 3 was usually planning her attack. Yeah, you guessed it, she attacked last night like never before. Punk 8 will be carrying a nice size bruise on her forehead/temple. This is what happens when you are hit in the head with a wooden building block! Yeah punk 3 threw it at her and nailed her. Punk 8 had a pretty good size knot and it was already turning purple when she got to me. She got an ice pack and little miss terror got put in time out, then sent to bed. She kept saying "I wanna be nice" or "I be nice now". Broke my heart, but I had to tell her that I knew she did, but it was too late and she was in trouble. She did hug her sister several times and kept telling her "love you sissy and I sorry". The little stinker!