Still here

I'm still here I promise!! Life/Work has been crazy lately. Every time I was determined to get on here I got side tracked. I plan on update some site soon but until then go check out a couple of sites.

Uncorked

Innsane

Ashley

How's this look?

I love messing with stuff. My blog was in the line of fire so it got hit this time...

I'm still tweaking in so let me know what you think. Well if there is anyone out there, let me know what you think. .....Taps microphone...Is this thing on???.... Ya know, sometimes I wonder if anybody does read my ramblings. Yeah I'm off the wall, sometimes just plain loopy. But oh well, nice to meet you!

What are your resolutions for 2009? It's a new beginning remember. Like last year wasn't enough..lol My resolution for 2009: Not to make any resolutions! That way I don't kick myself in the ass for not doing what I wanted to. Now I can make a list of what I want to do, but when I don't finish them I won't be as disappointed in myself. So I'm not going to lose weight (don't need too), I'm not going to get in shape, I'm not going to quit drinking or smoking, I'm not going to save money, or stockpile things, all in all I'm not going to do anyting I'm not already doing!!!

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12 days till d-day

It's only 12 days till Christmas. That means I only have 12 days to buy presents. Yep, you read that right, I have done no shopping at all. Well I have bought 2 gifts. But that's not much when you consider we buy 20+ gifts not including the punks. And the 2 I have bought are for the punks. And I've yet to figure out how we're gonna do that with just me working. I'll find a way. Always have always will.

Hubby is doing good. He says that he has got so much more energy now that he has the pacemaker. He's still on restrictions of not using his arm to give plenty of healing time so he won't pull the leads out and have to re-do all this.

I think the punks are all ready for winter break. But within a couple of days (if that long) we'll be hearing I'm bored. There's nothing to do. Well I won't be I'll be at work...hehehe.

Inflation strikes yet again

Cost of 12 days of Christmas rises to $86,609!!!

Partridge, $20 (last year: $15) Pear Tree, $200 (last year: $150)
Two Turtle Doves, $55 (last year: $40)
Three French Hens, $30 (last year: $45)
Four Calling Birds (canaries), $600 (last year: same)
Five Gold Rings, $350 (last year: $395)
Six Geese a-Laying, $240 (last year: $360)
Seven Swans a-Swimming, $5,600 (last year: $4,200)
Eight Maids a-Milking, $52 (last year: $47)
Nine Ladies Dancing (per performance), $4,759 (last year: same)
10 Lords a-Leaping (per performance), $4,414 (last year: $4,285)
11 Pipers Piping (per performance), $2,285 (last year: $2,213)
12 Drummers Drumming (per performance), $2,475 (last year: $2,398)

Yep that's it

I think I figured it out. Well at least part of it anyway. Are you confused yet???? The funky post is what I'm referring too. Tomorrow is my b-day. One that I'm not looking forward to at all. Tomorrow I will be 30. I'm not happy about it at all. Yes I'm happy that I'm in good health, still alive to be turning another year older. But not happy about turning another year older. I don't want to leave my twenties. I've had to much fun in these years! A lot has changed in my life in these 10 years. I've went through a divorce and a long term relationship. I've married my soul-mate. I've moved several times. I've given birth to three punks and gained two step-punks. I've gotten a couple of worry lines, several several gray hairs. (Can't tell that now, I took care of that last night!!!) I've traveled to new places. I've experienced new and exciting things. Yes I know there's plenty more to see and do. But it's just something about the twenties for me I guess. What does the next 10 years old in store for me? Will the next 10 still be fun and exciting? Will I have this same problem leaving my thirties? Am I completely and utterly crazy? Ok, don't answer that one. Just think in 10 more years my baby will be a teenager!!! Yikes. Ok now I really have a problem.

Funk

Yep, that's what I'm in. I've tried everything to shake it. Everything is going ok here. Hub's is back working, everyone is well. But I'm in this funk. I'll bite your head off and not think twice about it until about 2 nano seconds later. The smallest things are bugging the shit out of me. I feel like some of the punks are bombarding me with so many damn questions/wants. Want want want then damn it it's not good enough. And the questions: do people not use common sense anymore? Some of the questions ask are so so.... stupid. They won't pertain to anything that we have said or done, more than likely the come out of the blue with no freaking rhyme or reason. Not mentioning any names.... I woke up this morning feeling like shit warmed over. Now I've got that damn mediciney feeling. And still have over an hour of work left. Speaking of work I gotta get back to it!!!

week 2 of.... yeah you know

Well we have embarked on week #2. I believe in the previous post I said something about hubby cleaning and straighting stuff out. HA HA!!!! I think he did pick up 2 pieces of clothing and put them into the correct dirty clothes bin. And no people, I am not joking. I wonder if I made a list if that would help? Uh NO!! Know why, cause he'd hold on to that list until the punks got home and handed it to them. And of course there's not much of a problem with this, except that they only do a half-assed job of their particular job and consider that done. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm no perfectionist by any means, but come on! When you load dishes, take the two seconds to turn around and pick up the pan sitting on the stove less than 2 feet behind you. Oh, sorry there. That will be a different post for a different day. Back to hubs! Still unemployed, no foreseeable employer in the near future, no word on unemployment compensation.

PS: Don't ever do a stupid thing like I did when researching online colleges: which would be putting your phone number out there. I have one freaking one that keeps calling and emailing, you'd think they would get the point!

week 1 of unemployment

for hubby that is....

Hubby says that since he is "off work" right now that he is going to get things 'round the house straightened out. Oh boy! He's planning on going through stuff and getting rid of a lot of things. I told him that he's done that before but the keep pile is always bigger than the go pile. LOL Isn't that how it usually works? I would really love to get in there and do some deep deep cleaning on the place. All that has been getting done lately is a light surface cleaning. S17 has been helping me out so much in that area. I know she hates doing it, but she is one of the only ones that will do it without too much attitude. I have thanked her several times for cooking dinner while I shuttle punks to soccer practice and all. I hate putting so much on her, but she takes most of it with stride. Yes she can be sneaky as all get out, and yes she will do things that she is absolutely not supposed to do, but I guess it sorta balances out in a weird kind of way.

Got a little of subject there. Anywho, anyone want to take bets on just how much junk we are rid of while hubby is unemployed? Anyone want to guess how many more gray hairs I end up with by the time this is over? Will I be able to handle the stress that comes from cleaning? As long as all my rubber bands hold together I think I'll be ok....LOL

Happy Hump Day

Is it Wednesday already??? Where did the week go? Oh yeah I was out of it on Monday and recovering on Tuesday. LOL My procedure went well. No problems so far.

I did miss the first day of soccer practice for little Bug. Hubby got to take her and I think she impressed him. I'm so proud of her. I got to take her today. She did pretty good. I got tickled at her when she was in the goalie position. Then they did a little scrimmage and the ball hit her and she started complaining. Uh, babe, get used to it. It's gonna happen a lot playing soccer. I need to get her ball soon and get outside with her and practice. Does anyone know how to add more time to the day? Ugh, I need it. My oldest, punk 12, practice got rained out yesterday. So hopefully she'll get to practice tomorrow! She's excited for tomorrow.

I just read that one of the blogs I read A LOT is going away. I don't know for how long or if it is going to be permanently, but if you don't mind stop by and say bye: I will miss reading her blog tremendously. http://www.wombattheinnsane.com/

Ok it's about bed time here.

Busy, Busy Busy

Don't you just love the end of the month at work? Top that off with school starting back in a week and throw in dr. visits and you have a crazy busy week!!! So far this week I have been to three different dr. appointments. First up was hubby. Still having chest pains and shortness of breath. Doc is going to put a device in to record his heart if it drops below a certain # or above a certain #. Hopefully this will help and they can figure out what is going on!!! Next was myself to the Doc. Just a checkup, but I will be going in for an out-patient procedures in a couple of weeks as well. Female crap! Let's just say it's one step short of a hysterectomy. Finally eye visits for 2 of the punks. One checked out fine the other needs glasses! Plus, I have the shop to myself this week at work. Trying to get stuff out by end of the day. It sucks! So as I type I'm scarfing down my lunch. Next week schools starts back and I have lovely task of transferring punks from one school to another. I don't wanna do it but gas prices are forcing my hand. Also next week, I believe we have our first soccer meetings. I've about convinced myself that I was crazy for signing 2 up to play! Ok off to accomplish something, not sure what yet.

you gotta be kidding

I don't know who I thought I was kidding in my last post, I must be getting pretty good at lying to myself! HA! Overall I did manage to have my kitchen (at one time) clean, and threw away my damn coffee pot that quit working about a month ago! I also cleaned my bathroom completely, well ok I have vacuumed in there yet. Yes, my bathroom is carpeted, but that's another story. I also managed to get my sheets changed on my bed. I haven't tackled the mountain of clothes in my floor yet. Oh, and I unpacked Hubby's suitcase. Yep, it's been laying there since we return from MI. I did get a few good chuckles when he would get up during the night or morning and kick the damn thing!! My next plan is to tackle the bedroom. I also want to tackle our den (me and hubby disagree on the name of this room). The den is where clothes get thrown after coming out of the dryer. Sometimes folded others times not so much. It also houses my hubby's racing stuff. (I was nice there, I could have said racing shit!) And our old PC that doesn't work, a couple of old printers, a fax machine, a copier, and two filing cabinets. I so want to get in there and chuck about half of the crap! I'm gonna do it! Just not exactly sure when.

My house had been so damn hot. I live in the south, and the temps are anywhere between 90 and 100+ and add the humidity to that and it's miserable. Try living in that without any AC! Yes we were doing that. Did you catch that were part? We installed some AC units this weekend. YEAH!!! I slept a whole lot better. It does make it a little easier to clean now. Even though I still don't wanna do it!

Clean?

I've decided that no matter what I do or don't do, my house will never be clean. Sure it my be straightened, but man is it cluttered. I need to de-clutter and throw some shit away. That would go a long way in helping the rest of the house. I just have a problem throwing stuff away. Add to that we have no freaking place to store anything!!!! Ok we have 7 people living in a 3 bedroom/2 bath home. Each of the smaller bedrooms house 2 girls each. In one we have a set of bunk beds, a dresser, and a chest and a closet. The dresser and chest are packed to the breaking point with clothes, the closet is a haven for toy storage. And also under the bed have boxes for toy storage. The other bed room has 2 twin beds and two small chest and closet. Same story for that room only less toys because most are in the other room. Our bed room has our queen bed plus a toddler bed, 1 lg dresser and 1 small dresser, 1 entertainment stand, 2 night stands with 2 drawers each and 1 closet. All are packed. With the exception of the small dresser because I've been sooo lazy and haven't put the punky 3's clothes in there! Our bathroom does have some storage for towels and linens but not much. I really really need to do some purging. But honestly I'm so freaking overwhelmed I don't know where to start, or how. I suck at being domesticated. My dear hubby has put up with so much of this from me too. Or I should say me and my punks. They take after their mom. Sucks for them and me. I'm thinking about logging what I actually get accomplished once at home besides the normal cooking dinner and bathing punk 3 and all that standard stuff. I think the saying "A woman's work is never done" comes into play here. I can do it. I think I can, I think I can.... repeated over and over in my head. Please don't let me land on my face when I get home. Let me accomplish something. Start small and work up. Right?

Finally Friday

I don't think today could get here fast enough. One more week.... this time (well almost) next week we will be headed for vacation. I can't wait. I'm sooo looking forward to it, but at the same time dreading it because of freaking gas. Ugh! Maybe something will happen and prices will drop dramatically. Hey!, one can dream, can't she?!?! I'm just looking forward to a week free from the daily grind. No dragging my butt outta of bed to freaking early, no being here or there at a certain time. Hubby will probably have to bring me back kicking and screaming.

7 days and counting....

Decisions

One of these days I will decide on a blog layout that I like. I just can't seem to find one that fits. I've used another site before, but lost a lot of my widgets and stuff doing that. And I don't want to have to go through and put all that back in again. Can you tell that I don't know what I'm doing? Welcome to my life!!

And watch what you ask for..... Go read this blog and comments and you'll see. Me and my big mouth!!! Kadi is a excellent writer and tells it like it is. Honest truth about raising kids!!

Party of 1, please!

You ever had those days that you just want to have a pity party? Well today is that day for me. I have no clue as to why. I just feel off today. A lot has happened in the past couple of days. Bad, worse, then worst about sums it up. I've had to drag myself out of bed. I've had to make myself do the things that mom's do like cook and bath for little one. I've had to make myself do anything. And yet here I am sitting at work on the net instead of tackling work that's laying in front of me. All the while I try my best to keep a happy face on for the world to see. I'm starting to despise my job. I don't want to do it. And most of the time it's one of the most laid back jobs one can have. Sure there's the stress of customers, jobs getting screwed up, equipment going down. But it's just something that can't be explained I guess, cause I sure as hell can't right now. I don't want to quit, I don't want to find another job. I just want some time off. Granted I was off on Tues but that word "worst" from earlier comes into play there.
But then we have the joy of dealing with punk16 who doesn't know when to let a subject lie dead for a day or two. Ever tried to explain to a 16 year old female what a 16/17 year old male thinks with? Especially a male that already has a child? And 16 can't figure out why she can't go and stay the day where he's at even though it's at a family members house. Sorry I'm not fueling the fire. I've been there done that and I know what can/will happen. But, but, but,... cry, cry, cry,... stomp, stomp, stomp... I hate you... DOOR SLAMS! Dad's tried to explain it in the daddy way, I've tried to explain it in the step mom/mom way, I've laid out the cold hard facts, I've listened to her spill, yadda yadda. And yes my dear friends, this has been ongoing off and on for a week now, but since Sunday night it's been EVERY DAMN NIGHT!!! Why can't it stop?
For just a day, I want to walk in and say shut-up now, don't ask period. Most days I don't even make it to the porch steps before questions start being thrown at my head, now not from just 16 this would be from punk s12 (step daughter who's 12, remember I have a punk who's 12 too) or punk 8 as well. I can fend them off, make it into the house, set things down, go to change clothes (it's soo hot!) and to the restroom then they must know I"m sitting down LOL because questions start flying again. By then I break and yell, "Not right now, I'll be there in a freaking minute" Yes, they have me saying freaking! All this time, punk 3 is planning her attack. We're never sure who it will be upon but believe me, it's coming!!
Maybe in a couple of weeks after vacation things will get better. But first we have to make it on that vacation. Ugh! So much shit to deal with.
Some days I just want to Fugetaboutit!!!!

Let me have my say

Ever tried to have a discussion with someone, but you are unable to have a discussion because they won't shut the hell up? This just chaps my hide! I just want to say, "Listen, buddy, if you'd just close your damn air hole for a couple of minutes and listen it would be all good." Especially if you know that you have a valid point to make. But noooo, you can't do that. Even in the end when you would have been right it still bits you in the ass for trying to do just that. I would love to just say "nah nah boo boo, I was right, told ya so!!" Immature, yes very, but I really don' t care. One because I would just say most of that in my head. I think I have just about come to the conclusion that I'm not supposed to have an opinion or if I am it will be told to me. URGH!!!

pass or fail....FAIL

Ever had the feeling that you just can't get anything accomplished? No matter what you do, how hard you try, every trick you pull, nothing helps. Two steps forward, three steps back. Yeah, well that's where I am at right now. I sometimes just want to say screw it all, just through up my hands and yell I quit. I'm done that's it. Then I bang my head against the wall and knock some sense back into myself and start all over. "This to shall pass".... I try to keep telling myself that. But holy hell, it needs to speed the hell up. My house is a wreck, it looks like these storms have blown through my house. Yes I know with 5 punks it shouldn't look like that. But to my disadvantage, I have a hard time telling them to do this or that. Yes they should be doing some. But at the same time, I can't get it out of my head that I'm the mom and that's my job to do. Also, it's not done the way I would do it so I end up redoing it a lot of the times anyway. But I get so freaking frustrated that nothing gets done. I can say that the dishes are done. But walk around the corner and you will see the mountain of clothes strewn all over the floor that needs to be folded. I washed them, dried them, then threw them there and stopped. Yeah, I suck at this. Sure if I had all day to clean (without interruptions) it would get done. But by the next day it would all be undone. It's been proven. No one likes to keep cleaning on a daily basis. Everyone it too good for that. Just pick your shit up and that would help a lot. Sitting back and saying this room is a mess doesn't help. Saying I need to do this or that doesn't help. I feel like a failure as a wife and mom. I see the outcome of my actions, but for some reason have the inability to change it. Was it the way I was raised? Is it just me? Does my past have something to do with it? I dunno. I'll figure it out someday, just hopefully it's not a day late.

Take This Job and ....

Cause I ain't working (t)here no more.....


Yippy!!! Granted I didn't say those exact words, but nevertheless I'm only working one job again!!!! Oh I'm so happy. I was off work Tues. night, called in last night and it was so wonderful being at home with the family. I can't wait to tell my girls. Their on spring break this week so they have been staying here there and everywhere. I just want to scream "I Quit" from the roof tops.

3,534

That, my friends, is the number of tickets wrote in the "Taking back our highways 50/4" campaign. Here's a breakdown of some of them:

• 1254 for speeding
• 18 driving under the influence
• 847 no seatblets or child restraints
• 53 following too close
• 21 improper lane change
• 681 no insurance
• 237 drivers without license

There were also 63 non-traffic arrest made. These could have been for warrents. Acutal reasoning was not specified.

Luckly, sign of relief, I was not one of the above statistics and neither was my hubby. I did see my share of states along the roadways. I also saw plently of traffic stops along the way too. I actually did hear of a guy getting a ticket for doing 56 in a 55! Oy! A lot were given out around schools zones also. A few that I've heard about I'd be one to argue it and probably get myself in more trouble.