Monday, April 7, 2008

Runaway Train

Well we are now a family of 7. The punks are enrolled in school. Now we have 2 different schools to deal with for now. Long story on that part. Now to work on the insurance part of the whole ordeal, especially with oldest being diabetic.
Can I just say that I'm soooo overwhelmed? Well I am. I don't know what to do or where to turn next. Between the changes, health issues, and family (in-laws) I don't know which end is up anymore. And for some unknowingly reason I just have this eerie feeling that there's more unsettling things ahead of me. What is it? Hell if I know. There's a number of things it could possibly be. Do I want to list them, no not really. Wouldn't want to "jinks" myself. I just can't shake this sinking feeling that I've got. Can't really explain it to anyone either. Urgh!!! I've never been one to run from things. But right now I really just want to run. I want to run from everything! I want to quit my jobs. I don't want any responsibility for anyone. I want to run far far away and hide. I just want to be left alone. Or just scream my head off. WHY???? I wish I knew why. Can't blame it on anything at the home front. It's all good there. It's probably just me being screwy as always. Just looking for answers to the endless questions, and for some reason the answers never come. And when they do it's always too little too late. It's one of those I wish I known then what I know now type of situations that I always seem to find my self in. Oh well, that's life isn't it!!!

3 your breaks:

Misty said...

okay am i missing something... did the girls move in with permanently? Fill me in chickie...

Jen said...

Permanently, well for the time being anyways. Their mom has to get her shit together and back on her feet before they can go back. But by then the oldest will be 17 almost 18 so she's probably here to stay. The youngest, not sure what she will decide. The loves her sister and misses her mom, but the oldest has helped rasie her too.

My business said...

Ahh okay... so now you really get to pull your hair out. Well in all costs, I know you can do and handle it all. It will take you having a little more than a five min break but you are stronger than I ever dreamed of being. I know you can handle it.

Hang in there...
You will survive!!!